When it hurts a lot..

Everybody faces good as well as bad times in life. When I was in school, I used to be a very sincere, sensitive & shy guy. Though I was sincere, I never got good marks. Neither I played any game nor did I participate in any extra-curricular activities. I was always among the category of a group which was alienated from class. I felt really sad but I couldn’t do anything. Because I thought, if I try to do anything, it will be just another mistake. It was the most destructive period in my life. It ruined my social relations, my confidence & almost everything that touched my life. I was in depression. I felt inferior. I was trying to show that my life is good, but it was quiet the opposite.

Later, as I finished my school, I got time to relax & to think about, exactly what went wrong. Fortunately, I met a lot of people, who helped me to discover my own self & now I’m almost out of those bad memories. I want to share that transformation with you. That certainly wasn’t a miracle. That was a fierce battle inside me. As I said, school days were a terrific loss for me as a person. I had nothing to lose, no Image, no potential or no relation. I was empty. When I analyzed the situation, I found out that this is the chance to rebuild the lost potential. I knew that it is not possible to forget the things that happened, but I tried. I felt the need to show the world who I am in real. A need for strength, a need for perfection, a need for wisdom. And when you need something, you get it. Because needs are precious than wants.

Strength always comes from weakness. Light always comes from darkness. Similarly, I thought, I suffered to get well, I surrendered to win, I gave it away to keep it, and I died to live. Whatever that happened was past & I wanted to use it for my future, by taking efforts in present. When I developed this attitude, things actually began to change. I experienced the change which was pleasurable. And now I feel like nobody can hurt me. I can’t be humiliated, I can’t be disrespected, and I can’t be disregarded because I learned how to live.

The pain, the feeling of hurt is temporary. Actually it makes you more mature. Since that day, I always look out for different challenges, different voyages. This doesn’t mean that happiness is nothing to me. The satisfaction I get by facing the challenges or by forgiving is much beyond the definition of happiness made by us.

All I want to say about bad times & hurt is that, do not suppress it, it would hurt you inside. Do not express it, this would not only hurt you inside but also cause ripples in your surroundings. What you do, is transform it. It is like the law of energy stated by Einstein, it is neither created nor destroyed, it is just transformed.

There is a very thin line that separates laughter & pain, Comedy & tragedy, Humor & hurt. But that thin line is very difficult to cross. Those who can cross that line easily can adjust anywhere. I want to become one of them.

I know that when you lose, when you fail, when you are rejected, it hurts a lot. But stay calm & don’t let the spark inside you die.